Amit and Me have been married for what seems an eternity.
Since last 5yrs our relatives kept pressurising us for a child.
We decided to have a child just to keep everyone happy.
We had been trying for 2 and half years, and then finally consulted an infertility expert.
It was bomb when the diagnosis of male factor infertility flashed in front of our eyes.
I couldn't think it was possible. Amit was healthy, no addictions, perfectly caring husband....
I could only cry and ask god -- WHY???
Amit went into depression, he even offered me to take a divorce and move ahead in my life.
I couldn't leave him and I couldn't see him like this.
We went to our Infertility consultant, she said our only option was in-vitro fertilization with intracytoplasmic sperm injection ( IVF with ICSI).
While we were ready to pay anything for a baby, accepting someone else sperm was traumatic.
The family denied and banned us from even thinking about the same.
We went through the entire grill.. My mother-in-law would cook odd recipes and say this would help Amit's fertility issues.
My father-in-law would get new medicines for him.
He once even ordered some shaddy product shown on TV.
As the hindi proverb "marta kya nahi karta" (a dying man would do anything) we reached that state after 5yrs.
With a heavy heart the family accepted taking a donor sperm.
We started our first IVF with ICSI cycle, as 5yrs had passed by my body wasn't the same as then.. It took us four fresh IVF cycles and two early miscarriages, before I finally conceived our daughter.
It was a physical and emotional torture for all of us.
Today she is 6 months old. Everytime I look at her I wonder why didn't we respond early.
The battle with infertility has left a scar in our hearts and hope time will heal it.
- Anjali.
- BMI
Since last 5yrs our relatives kept pressurising us for a child.
We decided to have a child just to keep everyone happy.
We had been trying for 2 and half years, and then finally consulted an infertility expert.
It was bomb when the diagnosis of male factor infertility flashed in front of our eyes.
I couldn't think it was possible. Amit was healthy, no addictions, perfectly caring husband....
I could only cry and ask god -- WHY???
Amit went into depression, he even offered me to take a divorce and move ahead in my life.
I couldn't leave him and I couldn't see him like this.
We went to our Infertility consultant, she said our only option was in-vitro fertilization with intracytoplasmic sperm injection ( IVF with ICSI).
While we were ready to pay anything for a baby, accepting someone else sperm was traumatic.
The family denied and banned us from even thinking about the same.
We went through the entire grill.. My mother-in-law would cook odd recipes and say this would help Amit's fertility issues.
My father-in-law would get new medicines for him.
He once even ordered some shaddy product shown on TV.
As the hindi proverb "marta kya nahi karta" (a dying man would do anything) we reached that state after 5yrs.
With a heavy heart the family accepted taking a donor sperm.
We started our first IVF with ICSI cycle, as 5yrs had passed by my body wasn't the same as then.. It took us four fresh IVF cycles and two early miscarriages, before I finally conceived our daughter.
It was a physical and emotional torture for all of us.
Today she is 6 months old. Everytime I look at her I wonder why didn't we respond early.
The battle with infertility has left a scar in our hearts and hope time will heal it.
- Anjali.
- BMI
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